Do you ever have those days when you feel like Satan is literally sitting on your head? Its almost like everything you do is wrong. You are in a terrible mood, you don’t want to talk to anyone, and you feel worthless. That was how I felt today. I couldn’t escape it. I would pray and try to push my “reset” button and then something else would bring me down. It can be really frustrating.
I don’t want to live that way. I can’t stand being in a bad mood. I feel like I am wasting time and missing opportunities to impact the lives of others. After going to therapy (working out) and giving myself an attitude adjustment, I realized how I had left Satan win. I allowed him to consume my mind, my thoughts, and my actions all day long. I forgot that I have an irreplaceable role in this world that only I can fulfill. No one can offer what I can offer because of the role God has given me.
Although I am still searching for God’s invitation and direction for my life, I know that I have the role of being a woman. A woman that loves all people. A women that cherishes my relationships and fights for them. A women that chooses to have faith over fear. In the bible, Peter says “Do not give away to fear” (1 Peter 3:6) We fear because we are scared things aren’t going to turn out “right”. I am learning not to fear because I can rest in Gods love. When I have days like today, I need to remind myself of a few things.
-I am a woman.
-I am an imager bearer of God.
-I am needed
I have been called to bring God’s love, mercy, mystery, beauty, and desire for relationships to the world. I have been invited to follow God and rest in peace everyday. I know who I am and where I am going. It is time to allow God to show me the journey in-between and I search to know more about my irreplaceable role on this earth. I am eager as I wait to discover the role and whom I will share it with.
I pray that you will think about these truths. Especially you women. You have a HUGE role and it is time for you to take action. What good is it to sit back and wait for something to happen in your life. Maybe something you have been longing for like acceptance from others, to be married, to have your dream career. Stop holding back. You have an irreplaceable role that only can be fulfilled by you. You have a duty and if you ask me, its time to get started. You have some assignments God is waiting to give you…. you just have to say YES.