I felt the cool air blowing against my face, it hit my bare arms as I griped the handle bars and pedaled with all my might. I felt free. I felt powerful. I was in the moment. As I pressed hard against the pedals, I rounded a curve seeing nothing by trees and paved road head. I wasn’t sure where it would lead, but I chose to speed down it anyway. I wanted to get to the end. I was curious to see how far it would go. Would I make it? Where would I end up? As I charged on, I took a second to look behind me for my husband. Trying to keep my balance, but quickly check for him, I saw a short glimpse of him rounding the corner behind me. Slowing strolling along, enjoying the nature, and taking his time. I heard him yell, “Hey, you ready to turn around now? We still have to make it back you know!” I responded with a little attitude as always, ” No way! Are you going to ride with me and actually get some exercise or stay back there?!” He laughed and continued to trail behind. Once I made it to the point where our paved road came to gravel, I turned around to head back. This time I knew my territory. I knew where I had already been and continued speeding down the road with joy. Then, it hit me. How much this scene compared to our personalities. Wesley, my husband, is the cautious, slower moving, but stable part of us. He is good at living in the moment, taking time to slow down, and enjoy his surroundings. I am the opposite. I run full force, forget to stop and enjoy the journey, and continue to push and push and push until I exhaust myself. Throughout our first year of marriage, this has been a struggle for us. We have questioned how to manage our distinct differences and how to make a good team. Although we still haven’t figured it out, I have learned a lot in a year about myself, my husband, and my Creator.
1.) I need security.
I live my life quickly, always changing, and venturing into unknown territory. My husband loves me well so I can feel secure chasing my dreams, taking chances, and running with reckless abandonment at times.
2.) I need stability.
He is constant when my world is changing. He is my shade tree when I’ve been out in the sun too long or even burned a little. He is a safe place to land when my days are long and my emotions are high.
3.) He allows me to be me.
Although he is more cautious, sometimes hesitant, he doesn’t try to change me. He welcomes my venturous spirit, my fast paced life, and my need for order and completion. He loves me for who I am and not who he wants me to be or even who I want me to be. Because of his love, I can find grace when I make mistakes or fail at changing old habits.
As we drove to Natchez for celebrate our One Year Anniversary, we made a list of everything we had done in our first year of marriage. This process started off slow, but our events began to fill up the pages of the notebook paper. Events from several months back that we had forgotten about came to our minds. Once we listed everything we could think of, we realized even more how much we had been blessed in our first year marriage. It’s easy to forget. To get so busy that you forget some of the biggest events in our life and how it changed you. How much growth we both had experienced.
As I sit down and think about my marriage, my husband, and how he shows me love, I am reminded that I have a heavenly Father who gives me security, stability, and wants me to be who he has created me to be. I am able to have courage to run freely after my dreams he has placed in my heart because he has set me free through His death on the cross. There is grace for me when I fall, strength for me when I get the courage to charge forward, a soft place to land when I am exhausted, and a community of believers around me to help carry my burdens.
Just as my husband anchors me down in this life, so does my Lord Jesus Christ. He is the greatest anchor for our soul. He holds everything together while encouraging us to step out in faith. We can have hope in Him. Hope and trust to know that God’s promises are certain.
Hebrews 6:19-120 says, “so that by two unchangeable things in which it is impossible for God to lie, we who have taken refuge would have strong encouragement to take hold of the hope set before us. This hope we have as an anchor of the soul, a hope both sure and steadfast and one which enters within the veil,where Jesus has entered as a forerunner for us, having become a high priest forever according to the order of Melchizedek.”
What is holding you back? You have been set free. You are called. You are chosen. Pedal free, dear friend!